Learning to not be so hard on myself

So I haven't posted since I last weighed in. I was incredibly disappointed when I weighed in

Previous weight: 272
Current weight: 270.2
Difference: -1.8, total -3.2

I know that it is a loss and I should be glad but I exercised every day last week but one and there were 4 days I think that I went to the gym and did the elliptical for 30 minutes which gets me sweating in about 2 minutes flat. I actually tracked my points and I was baffled. Again, I know that it is a loss but it does start to make me worry about if it takes that kind of work to get 1.8 pounds off now what kind of work will I have to do when I continue to lose weight. I know it will only get harder. My roomie pointed out that it might be because I went to the gym and worked out a bunch that I did not see much of a change. The muscle weighs more than fat thing. I certainly hope that is the case because it is really hard to stay motivated to go work out everyday when you don't see much in the way of pounds dropped.

I will say though that the working out at the gym has been really useful for me in terms of stress management. I have been going later at night and it has been kind of nice to work through all the tension that builds up during the day. My schedule is really hectic this month and I am completely overwhelmed almost to the point of shutting down so I think that it helps. There are some days though (like the last couple of days) that it is really hard to muster the energy to go to the gym at night. It also does not help when I come home from lab at 10:30 at night. So, this week has not been as great. I did not work out on Sunday but I did a hell of a lot of cleaning (4 hours) so I think that counts as some exercise. I went to the gym Monday night but have not had any exercise over the last 2 days. I am going to a concert tonight so that is a wash but I do still have Friday so I can salvage at least 2 gym days.

I am trying to stay positive but it is becoming really hard. When everything else in my life starts to get hard this is the easiest thing to give up. It is soooo tempting to stop worrying about tracking points or making sure I am eating the right foods. It gets hard to find the time to cook food at home instead of getting something from the nearest drive through. I have been fighting the temptation and doing my best to stick to my goals. A friend is coming this weekend which usually means bad food, drinking and no exercise but I think that this time it will be different. We stocked up on good foods to eat and cook with and maybe I can talk her into exercising with me :)

I weigh in on Saturday so I guess we will see what happens with that. I think I am also going to check my measurements at that time. It would at least be another way for me to see if I am making any kind of progress. So hopefully another update on Saturday.