Not such a good week

Well I got tempted and peeked at my weight this morning and it is not exactly promising for the week. I hadn't even used any flex points really. The only thing I can figure is that I had A LOT to eat last Friday and Saturday before starting this and I think that my weight had not caught up with me yet. I guess we will see. This has been a hard week. The happy hour was not too much of a problem except for the one extra beer, but that is what flex points are for. The rest of the problem came in not having snacks during the day, a grad reception this afternoon (at least the food was pretty decent nutritional wise) and the biggest challenge to the week that is coming tomorrow.

Tomorrow we are having a grad student party. I am having it at my house and I am making burgers, but at least I got the lowest point buns and the leanest ground beef. I am also going to use 2% cheese and I am making a potato salad from a weight watchers recipe. I have been planning for this event all week, trying to save as many flex points for tomorrow as possible. My roommate is making some whole wheat pasta and we have quite a few vegetarians who are going to be bringing healthy snacks, such as veggies and dip. I am definitely going to cut back in the morning and at lunch so that I will not go over for the day. The problem is going to be TEMPTATION. I am going to try as hard as I can to stay away from the really unhealthy stuff and I am going to try and watch my portions. I am also going to try and make a conscious effort not to just keep snacking. I have a feeling that this is going to be a big challenge for me though. I guess I will just have to see how it goes.

The other problem with this week has been exercise. I have not been very consistent about getting it. I walked on Monday, we looked for Yoda on Tuesday, but I have not gotten much exercise in during the last 2 days. I definitely got a bit in today with some gardening work (at least my back and arms think so) and yesterday with taking apart a crate at work (my forearm muscles were completely stiff) but nothing that I would count as really exercise. I think part of the problem is that I need to re-organize my life a little better. I go into work without a plan for the day really, get side-tracked by my wacky colleagues, and end up staying later than I wanted to or come home much more exhausted than I counted on. I have definitely figured out that I have a greater chance of getting some exercise in when I do it in the morning. The problem has been this last week was kind of crazy and all over the place and I did not have a plan. I am a person that really needs to have a plan and a to-do list with little boxes to check off. My goal for this next week is going to be to get up and exercise in the morning at least 4 of the 7 days. I figure I will start off small and work my way up. I am slowly starting to get up sooner. I think that now that I am back in the routine of classes and lab that it might get easier. In an odd way, classes add structure to my week.

This all kind of leads up to the fact that I have had trouble lately with staying motivated at work. I think I am in need of a serious vacation. I have gotten really far behind and it is the type of thing that you are just so overwhelmed with how much there is to do that it is hard to figure out where to start. There are some nights that I cannot go to sleep because I keep thinking about all of the things that need to get done and the only way I finally can go to sleep is to get out of bed and write out a detailed, prioritized to-do list for the day and the week. That is the kind of thing that I am trying to change. Part of changing into the new me is going to be to start getting into a routine, sticking to the deadlines that are set for me or that I set for myself, and to get accomplished what I have said I will accomplish. I think this might be the perfect semester for me to do it. I just need a little time to breathe, think, and plan. The biggest problem is keeping the pressure off long enough to do that. However, I do have some resources at my disposal and I need to start taking advantage of them. Also, I am someone who would really prefer to have things extremely organized (I love my labelmaker) and I am having trouble first finishing the organization and then keeping it that way. It is a strange thing when your ideal work and living situation is one way and you seem unable to actually achieve that ideal. That is another goal for this year. I think I will take that one little by little though. Conquer one space at a time.

Why am I writing about all these different, non-weight related issues you may be thinking? It is actually not that non-weight related. It all has to do with how I conduct my life. Things get out of control and then I am just trying to keep my head afloat but not really getting anywhere. My weight is just one example of a bigger issue in my life. I need to get my life under control because I do not want to live like this for the rest of my life. I am hoping that by changing one area of my life that it will affect all of the other areas of my life.

I think that is all I have for now. I am getting tired and I have to go into work tomorrow before setting up for the party. Hopefully, I will only be there for about 40 minutes though. I will definitely post on Sunday with my new weight, whatever it may be. I am done with the incoherent ramblings for now. Until next time . . .